1st gay relationship went sour fast

1st gay relationship went sour fastIn 2017 the girl I was seeing finished with me after finding out I enjoy taking cock by annonomous guys. In fact I was too honest with her and told her things I've done I'm ashamed of, we've not spoke since but I imagine she now hates me. Anyway at the beginning of 2018 I set up a profile on a gay site called Squirt, hoping I was going to get loads of cock while I'm single. Setting up my profile went, straight acting and prefers girls but loves to take cock by random strangers while out cruising. I'm willing to try anything as long as I feel used afterwards. After talking to a few guys there was a guy I talked to a lot more just because he had a 9 inch cock. I told him I'm shy but would love to get tied up and gangbanged while it was being filmed, I only said that because I was half drunk and horny. We arrange to meet up at a park close to mine as he drove and I don't plus I didn't want him in my flat. We met in his camper van and as soon as I knocked on he shouted come in and get undressed I stepped in and it was pitch black with black curtains. As soon as I was undressed he walked out the back with this impressive cock bouncing up, down